IT'S OFFICAL!!!

I believe I have officially gone off my rocker! But then, most of you probably already knew that! It's been 9 months since I met Jonah, and I haven't seen him since then (obviously.) Well we found out back in February that he was going to be visiting, and we started the "countdown" at 63 days, exactly 9 weeks before the date he is to arrive. Weeelllll, as you can see from the countdown on the side of my page, only about a day and a half to go!!!!! He's getting here early Tuesday evening. One of the guys in my church, Wayne, was sooooo kind to allow Jonah to stay with him! When he's here we'll be going to Niagara Falls. Hopefully we don't go to Canada this time!!!! Well, we'll be with Dad, so I don't think we'll have to worry about that! Mom tends to be the one that gets lost;) Oh and we'll be going to Hibachi! Hopefully we can get some good pics of how they cook the food and make "Big Fire" so you all that have never been there can see! It's AMAZING!!! Anyways, back ot the point! Because I'll be pretty busy having fun (sorry to everyone that has to work! Muahahahahaha!!!! :p) I probably won't be posting the whole time Jonah's here. Soooo until next time, Adios!!! See ya later alligator!! Hasta La Vista! (hopefully that's right) Talk to you later! Bye bye now!;)

All alone!:'( *sniff*

Alone--the feeling that no one cares. The feeling that you're the only person in the world. Feeling like no matter what you go through, what you say, what happens, you'll be all alone, with no one to care about you.

No matter the good, you won't be recognized, and even if it's bad, you won't be reprimanded. You'll be, to put it matter-of-factly, invisible. Even if you cry out, it's like no one hears you. When you speak, it's as if the people around you are deaf to your words.

That's the feeling I have as I post today. It's been weeks, and a recurring feeling shows up several times a day. My heart begins to race in anticipation, only to have my hopes shattered, and thrown to a merciless wind that carries them away. Does anyone else get this feeling??

Well, I know my mom does. She once posted about it on her blog as well, here. I hope now that you all, as my good friends and family, are wanting to know what it is that I'm so alone about. And hopefully, because you all love me, you'll want to help me feel like I'm not the only person in the world. Well, what I'm so upset and lonely about, is the fact that I get no..............

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People don't ever stop to give love to my blog!! Often times, I get all worked up anticipating just ONE comment, but alas, there are none. It saddens me beyond understandabilty!

Things I love to smell

First of all I would like to say "thank you" to Mary for tagging me! I was soooo looking for something to blog about but I couldn't figure it out! This it the perfect blog post!:-D ok, on to things I love to smell!! Oh and btw, you inspired me Mary!! I'm styling this post after yours. I'm pretty much a bland blog poster so I'm trying to spice it up a bit!:-D

1. Fresh spring air!

There's just this AMAZING scent in spring air. It SMELLS like spring!!!

2. My perfume!!!

I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but I wear Charlotte Russe and it's smells FABULOUS!!!! One of my VERY FAVORITE smells!!!

3 Kittens!

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE the smell of kittens!!!! I don't know what the smell is, but they have this scent about them until they're like 6 months old and I just LOVE it!

4. COLOGNE!!!!

I've never smelled the Chrome Cologne that Mary mentioned, but there are a LOT of other colognes that I just LOVE to smell!! Ooooh and I love the Estee Lauder's aftershave. it's called Beyond Paradise. It. Smells. So. GOOD! And I TOTALLY agree with Mary when she says guys immediately look better when they smell good! It also makes a guy classier, in my opinion, when they wear good-smelling cologne.

5. SLEEP!!!

Oh wait, sleep doesn't smell!! Sure would be nice if it did though cuz I would smell it until it completely consumed me!!!! I hate not being able to sleep, especially days like today when I wake up really early when I wish I could be sleeping!

Man! Do you know how hard this is coming up with things I like to smell??? Anyways, pardon the brief moment of being side-tracked.

6. Roses

I sooooooo love the smell of fresh roses!!!! The first dozen roses I ever got was from my dad for my 15th birthday. I left them in a vase on my dresser and every time I walked into my room I could smell the roses. It was AWESOME having that as an air freshener!

7. Undescribable, see below

Weelll, I'm not quite sure how to describe this smell, but it's on that I'm very familiar with. It's a smell that any Apostolic girl who's gone to camps or conferences and stayed with other girls knows. It's a mix of hairspray, perfume, toothpaste, and steam from an ironing board. I LOVE IT!:-D

8. Herbal Essences Hydrating shampoo and conditioner

I really can't describe how it smells!! you would just have to try it to find out how it smells:-D oh, and it works GREAT on smoothing out my hair.

9. Bread!

I love the smell of freshly baked rolls, or bread! It smells sooooooo good!!!

And finally, we arrive at numero 10! Please forgive my warped sense of humor, anyone who's reading this!

10. Deer steak

I looooooovvvvveeee the smell of deer steak!!! Like seasoned deer steak frying in the skillet...oooo my mouth is watering already!!!!! It's SO good!!!

Oooh I forgot the most important part of this blog game! I need to tag some people. Soooo....

Mom, consider your self tagged.

Laura, you're it!;)

Elissa, I tag you as well, but for you, I want pictures THAT YOU TOOK of the things that you love to smell!! This makes it interesting. The same for Anita!:-D

Since I already stated it, I'm sure you know! Anita, you're tagged as well!

Valene Marie, at Faith, Hope, and Love, you're tagged!

Dad, I would love to know what you like to smell. Probably lots of fossil fuels and coal;)

I didn't tag many people, but I hope you all will participate in this little game!

Happy blogging to you all!

Pancakes!!

Soooo, today I learned how to make pancakes!!! Like whenever I tried to make them and I would try to flip them over, I would make a HUGE mess and it wouldn't EVER turn out right!!! Well like two weekends ago, we went to King's Restaurant, which is a family owned, chain restaurant in this area. My mom got some vanilla custard filled pancakes or something like that. Weeelll, the thought struck me for a NEW recipe for pancakes and I've been just DYING to make them!!!! Soooo, today, my mom taught me how to actually MAKE the pancake, and I made the filling to put between them, and IT WAS SO, SO, SO, SO GOOD!!! They were THE BEST pancakes I've EVER HAD!!!!!! So now that I've taunted you with telling you about how good they were, you're just chomping at the bit to know what the filling is that I made, right??? Weeellll, I don't have an exact recipe yet cuz I just threw it together, but all I used was cream cheese, sugar, and vanilla. I warmed the cream cheese up for like 15 seconds so it would be soft, just dumped in some sugar, and then poured some vanilla in. Then I mixed it all up with the mixer, and it was soooooo delicious!!! I spread it on top of the first pancake, and then put the second pancake on top of it. Then I spread some more of the cream cheese mix on top of the upper pancake, and poured syrup over it all. My mouth is watering AGAIN just thinking about it!!!! If anyone tries this out, PLEASE tell me how it was and how you liked it!!!! Thank you!!:D

My parents

This is so totally random, but I just have to tell the world!!! I have the best parents ever!!! Like seriously!!!! Mom, Dad, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! My parents are just wonderful! They are caring and understanding, the don't expect me to be something I'm not, they listen when I need to talk, they're fun and loving, they don't yell and fight, and they treat me respectfully. As goofy as my dad is, he's one of the best people I know! He's so calm and relaxed, don't get upset about like ANYTHING. He's soooo crazy though!! There are times when I would like to act like I DO NOT know him, but I guess that's what makes him--HIM!! We always have TONS of fun together, which is probably because we're so much alike. He's just flat-out AWESOME! And he's an amazing dad!! Something I never realized when I was younger, but am starting to realize now, is my dad knows pretty much everything, about pretty much everything. There are few things that you could ask my dad "What does this mean?" or "What is that?" and he wouldn't be able to give you a very clear and informative answer. He's a TOTAL history buff! He loves history, and he loves to tell stories about it. And he's not like a "proper and just the facts" type of story teller, if that makes sense. He makes boring stories into REALLY interesting stories!! (I think he gets that from my grandpa, cuz he's the same way;)) And then there's my mom. Where, oh where, do I start talking about my mom?? Well, I guess I could start by saying she is very, very wise! She knows a lot about a lot, but not the same way as my dad. She has a common sense that stays clear and focused. If you ask her for advice she will give you solid advice, and not just something off the top of her head. She's one of the best wives I've ever seen!! She's loving, and she's a perfect example of what women should be when they get married. And she's an AWESOME mother!! I can't tell you how many times I've been upset and she's hugged me and made me feel better. Oooh and she's a GREAT cook!!!! Today, she made THE BEST crock-pot chicken I've EVER had!!! I would say the best chicken, but FRIED CHICKEN IS THE BEST!!!! I love fried chicken so much I could be Colonel Sanders!! Anyways, back to my beautiful Mama!! Something else that I've noticed about her, that I never noticed when I was younger, is how much of a lady and how graceful she is. She's very proper, she cares herself in a lady-like manner, and she is graceful in any situation. THAT my friends is what I wanna be when I grow up!

Five Question Friday

1. Have you ever had surgery? Nope, sure haven't, thankfully!! Probably gonna have to have foot surgery in a few years tho:( 2. Ever ride in an ambulance? Again, nope!!! 3. How are you in a medical emergency? Panicked? Calm? I think I'm relatively calm. It's been a while. I think I'm calm on the outside, but I worry and get really panicked on the inside. I just feel like sitting down and crying usually. 4. Do you have a garden? Flowers or veggies? We have flower beds in the front of the house, and we were supposed to have a vegetable garden last year, but that didn't end up happening. We may have a veggie garden this year, though. 5. When did you move out of your parents house? Currently still live with my parents. Unless I end up being a 30 year old single woman, I don't plan to move out until I get married, or unless my parents decide I need to move.

Mushy stuff!!

LOVE.....

The word to some people means the little furry creature that they go home to and feed, water, and pet. It's the little kitty cat that paws at the bedroom door at 5 o'clock in the morning, and once let in, jumps on the bed purring and licking her owner's face. Then, to others, it's the dog that anxiously awaits his master's return after a long day. As soon as the door is opened, the man's best friend is wagging his tail and jumping up and down.

To other people, *ahem* Wayne and Angela, Kristi and Duane to name a few *ahem* love is the man or woman that they met, (or re-met after 20 years) and now couldn't live their life without. It's knowing that you have someone who is committed to you, that cares about you, that accepts you for who you are no matter what, that loves you, who will always be there for you, and who gives their heart and life to you, and wants to spend forever with you. To some other people, it's the man or woman that you have spent every day with for 39 years. It's the security in knowing that you have all you've ever wanted, of sharing 4 kids together, of having 11 grandkids.

And then, to some other people, love is the sticky faced little babies that raise their arms to you to be held. At all hours of the night, the baby wakes up, crying for Mama, and then once Mama has taken care of them, the little smile that lights up their face as they talk to Mama and play. As the years progress, the love that some people experience puts up with attitudes, temper tantrums, broken bones, and spends a lot of hours listening to their child cry, and tell Mom about their broken heart. It's the father that teaches his son how to be a man, how to provide for a family, how to care about someone else and be selfless.

I was sitting here today, and the thought hit me, that if every person in the world was in love in some sort of way, the world would be a much, much happier place! If each person had at least one person that made them the happiest person in the world, there wouldn't be so many problems! There wouldn't be so many people that walk out and go crazy, shooting people because of the darkness in their heart. I look around and see people that are in love with each other, like Kristi and Duane, Wayne and Angela, my mom and dad, grandma and grandpa. They are all so in love with another person. Kristi and Duane met, and fell in love so quickly. It was like they were always meant to be together, and it's like they've known each other forever. Wayne and Angela were separated by life and both went through life two different ways for 20 years, but once they got back together, they fell in love and are getting married. My mom and dad have been married for 17 years, and they are so happy and content. They aren't out looking for something else. They are happy, healthy, and have a family that they are raising, and it's almost raised;) [Only two more children to get into adulthood and out of the house;)] My grandma and grandpa have been married for 39 years, and they are so happy.

My conclusion of the day is, GO LOVE SOMEONE!! It doesn't have to necessarily be someone of the opposite gender, but find SOMEONE ELSE that you can care about more than yourself, that you can spend time with, and be happy with! Go to a nursing home, make some elderly person happy in their last days. Go to work at a daycare, care about some little children! Go to your local soup kitchen, care about the poor and less fortunate. When we put others above ourself, and love and care about them, it makes us ALL much happier people!